SATURDAY POETRY SERIES PRESENTS: STEVIE EDWARDS

By Stevie Edwards:

POEM WITH PEARS IN IT
After Robert Hass

Everything in the college cafeteria
is the fleshy color of canned pears
and so am I because it is winter.

*
Because it is winter and fresh fruit is impossible,
or at least too expensive,
I spoon canned pears into a blue plastic bowl
and guzzle the syrup straight from the can
like nobody raised me with any manners,
that’s what my mother would say,
and she’d be mostly right.

*
My mother would say, and she’d be mostly right,
that I am a beast. Sometimes I see Hannah with her shirt off
because we are roommates and sometimes it happens
and she has a pear tattooed on her side and sometimes
it happens that I am hungry and I’m not supposed to
put my mouth there because we are roommates.

*
Because we are roommates
in a time of fresh fruit
we share bites
from the same soft pear
and let the juice stick
to our bald chins
and say it is good.

*
Say it is good. Say it slides
               good on you tongue.
Say soft. Say bites. Say
               the juice sticks good
to your chin. Say it’s a pear.


MY FIRST STAB AT LIVING A DOUBLE LIFE

Because we were too proud a family
for the free lunch program
and cheese and deli meat were too expensive
for daily sandwiches, each school night for a decade
I smeared PB&J over cheap wheat bread
and shoved it into a flimsy sandwich bag.
Because I knew real hunger
was when the loaves ran out
and there was almost always a loaf
of frozen bread in the deep freeze to unthaw,
I told the soon-to-be cheerleaders
who lived in subdivisions
with names like storybooks,
who mocked the constant sameness
and smallness of my lunch offerings,
that this blandness gumming
the roof of my mouth was my favorite,
that I could have their stupid meat
and crackers, their juice boxes
and pudding cups and fullness
if I willed it. For a month each girl
came to school carrying carefully cut
triangles of PB&J and bragged
hers was the best, and I knew
I could turn any nothing into want.


WE WERE TRYING TO WRITE A LOVE STORY

but were we flailing on the bare, rough
mattress or failing? If to fail is to want
wilderness and achieve only small puddles
of salt—if to salt is what we do to wounds
to make them feel more wound-like,
then we must’ve been filling
our anatomies with stinging,
which was a failure at mercy,
which is a component of loving.
Did I hear him singing a blues
that bent August into a woman’s room
with no windows to cool the viscous night?
It must be possible to bend a woman
into a window. He must have tried
to jump out of me. He must have
tired his jumping muscles.
Could I have ever born him up
into the glad light of spring?
Do I mean born or raised and can you
raise a sad-boned man into anything
like light? If to find blood inside
a store-bought egg is to bear
sadness, if we were scared to eat it,
then aren’t we human, soaked
and salted and saved?


FORGIVE IT ALL

At Macy’s on State Street, in the year
of the good paying office job, I selected

an armload of spring dresses to try on,
a present to myself for my birthday.

Forgive the salesclerk who told me
not to play dress-up with the merchandise

when I wasn’t going to buy any.
She couldn’t have been speaking to

my well-starched shirt collar and woolen
trousers. There must have been some

darting hustle left in my eyes. Forgive
me. I dropped the half-dozen dresses

on the floor in front of the fitting rooms
and stomped off muttering, I’ll take


my damn money somewhere with
manners
. Forgive me for wanting

them so bad I went to the Macy’s
three Subway stops away where

the salesclerk didn’t mind the trash
in my bloodshot eyes and I wept

in the fitting room and bought
the most expensive frock. Forgive

the looming credit card balance
I should’ve paid down from years

with no dresses and tattered shoes.
There was a glad whimsy music

to that dress— the tiered
gingham skirt and crisscross

back—worth the stomping off,
the weeping, the reckless want.


(Today’s poems originally appeared in Thrush Poetry Journal and appear here today with permission from the poet.)


Stevie Edwards is an MFA-poetry candidate at Cornell University. Her first full-length book of poetry, Good Grief, was released by Write Bloody Publishing in April 2012. She is the Editor-in-Chief of Muzzle Magazine, Head Honcho of Brusque Magazine, and an Editor of 4th & Verse Books. Her poetry has previously appeared in Southern Indiana Review, Rattle, Verse Daily, PANK, Thrush, and several other literary periodicals.

Editor’s Note: It is no wonder Thrush Poetry Journal featured six of Stevie Edwards’ poems when they typically feature no more than three pieces per poet. These poems are addictive. One unfolds into the next, riveting in their confessional nature, a feeling of kinship arising as poems read like shared experience. These pieces are successful as narrative poems, as short stories or flash fiction, and as poems bearing the torch of the lyric tradition, when they shine brightest with lines like, “Did I hear him singing a blues that bent August into a woman’s room…” In reading these poems I find that it can be difficult to discern whether my heart is broken for the poet, the narrator, or myself.

Want to read more by and about Stevie Edwards?
Buy Good Grief from Amazon
Stevie Edwards Official Website
“What I Mean by Ruin Is…” in Rattle

About Sivan Butler-Rotholz

Sivan is the Contributing Editor of the Saturday Poetry Series on As It Ought To Be and holds an MFA from Brooklyn College. She is a professor, writer, editor, comic artist, and attorney emerita. She is also the founder of Reviving Herstory. Sivan welcomes feedback, poetry submissions, and solicitations of her writing via email at sivan.sf [at] gmail [dot] com.
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3 Responses to SATURDAY POETRY SERIES PRESENTS: STEVIE EDWARDS

  1. Chiefy says:

    I’m not all that much into poetry, but, damn, that’s good! Honest and compelling. Makes me want more.

  2. Maya Elashi says:

    ~~~then aren’t we human, soaked and salted and saved? And ~~~and I knew I could turn any nothing into want!\

    More!

  3. Buy the book – you won’t disappointed if you love this set. Stevie is on top of her game.

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